I do
not feel like I am a year away from 30 and it doesn’t “really” scare me either.
Honestly, I think the only thing that really scares me about turning 30 is the
expectations I have made for myself by my 30th birthday. Although my
“Birthday” was Sunday the 25th, we did my birthday “party” a week early. As a
holiday baby it is nearly impossible to do a party on or really close to my
actual birthday and expect people to actually be able to attend! J
My
husband did a good job at planning my birthday. Originally I think he planned
it as a surprise, but I kept pestering him about it (I didn’t want him to
forget :/) that he finally just told me what he had planned. J
He
invited our friends to go out to dinner with us and then come back to our house
for games and cake. He was so nice to get everyone together. I love Birthday Parties
and celebrations. I love anything that will get family or friends or both
together. I love to have birthday parties too. I don’t typically like all the
attention and I get a little embarrassed when people sing to me but I love
having everyone together and getting to entertain.
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| Byron and I with my cake and Balloon |
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| They thought it would be funny to wrap me in my balloon. |
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| Byron thought it would be funny to wrap it up to my neck... I did not! |
So what
are the expectations I have made for myself before turning 30? Are you ready
for this??? J I would like Byron
and I to have our first child before my 30th Birthday. There… I said
it out loud… EEK!!! That is my wish and my hope/ plan. But, I know God always
has his own plan. Originally I wanted to be married by 22 first child by 25… I didn’t
even meet Byron till I was 25. My dad always tells me that “man makes plans and
God laughs”. I think God gets plenty of laughs from me then because I am such a
planner.
Proverbs
16
Contemporary
English Version (CEV)
The Lord
Has the Final Word
16 We
humans make plans, but the Lord has the final word. 2 We may think
we know what is right, but the Lord is the judge of our motives. 3 Share
your plans with the Lord, and you will succeed. 4 The Lord has a
reason for everything he does…9 We make our own plans, but the Lord
decides where we will go.
So I am
at the point now where I give it all to God. I try my best not to worry or be
anxious.
Philippians 4: 6-9
Contemporary
English Version (CEV)
6 Don’t worry about
anything, but pray about everything. With thankful hearts offer up your prayers
and requests to God. 7 Then, because you belong to Christ Jesus, God
will bless you with peace that no one can completely understand. And this peace
will control the way you think and feel. 8 Finally, my friends,
keep your minds on whatever is true, pure, right, holy, friendly, and proper.
Don’t ever stop thinking about what is truly worthwhile and worthy of praise. 9
You know the teachings I gave you, and you know what you heard me say and
saw me do. So follow my example. And God, who gives peace, will be with you.
I know
that everything happens in his timing. Whenever I get worried or anxious about
having a baby I remind myself about my “waiting” for a husband. There were many
times I thought I might never get married. I hit 25 and I didn’t even have a
boyfriend. But I had always been told that God might still be preparing 1 or
both of us for the marriage. In hind sight I understand. I had to grow and
mature more to be able to be married to my husband… I had to learn to not be so
stubborn and that I didn’t need to win every argument; and I think God was
doing the same for Byron (we are both pretty stubborn and strong willed).
So once
again I find myself “waiting”… waiting on God and the plan he has for me/us.
For when we will have children… if we will be able to have our own; or if God
will want us to adopt.
Whatever
it is… I am waiting on God… I know what he has planned for me is far better
than anything I could hope or plan for myself.
Psalm
130:5-6
Contemporary
English Version (CEV)
5 With all my heart, I
am waiting, Lord, for you! I trust your promises. 6 I wait for you
more eagerly than a soldier on guard duty waits for the dawn. Yes, I wait more
eagerly than a soldier on guard duty waits for the dawn.
Is there something you are waiting on? Or expectations you have set for yourself?
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